Release me

For those couple of people that read this blog that are in my ward... i beg you not to say anything about this post or just skip this post if you're unable to keep a secret.....
A few weeks ago, i posted about being called in to see the bishop. i thought i was being released from my calling as the laurels advisor. At the time, i was kind of happy to be getting released. it wasn't because i don't love my calling, but more because i have felt so icky and i just felt like i wasn't doing a good job. so before i met with the bishop, i had prepared myself that i was being released and i had come to terms with it- good and bad. but then, when i met with the bishop, i found out that i was not being released, that they were just changing the presidency. they said that they were going to keep the advisers the same. so i left the bishops office feeling a little shocked because i had expected to be released. then i started to get happy because that meant that i could still teach my girls each week and see their smiling faces and listen to all their boy/parent/school troubles. i also was excited because i knew that once i had the baby, i would have more energy to put into my lessons and start doing a good job again. but then today... i was hunted down by a member of the bishopric and told that they were releasing me. they will make the announcement in sacrament meeting next week. I'm a little bit sad because i won't be at church for awhile since I'm having the baby this week and will probably stay home for a least a couple weeks after that with the kid so i won't get a chance to tell the girls goodbye or get to teach a really fun lesson with treats or something like that and go out with a bang!! oh well. i know it's the best decision for everyone right now. at least i will still get to see the girls at church on Sundays. they've been so fun. i just love them all. so many of my girls are heading off to college so i was losing them this summer anyway. I'm going to miss my calling, but i know it is for the best since I'm going to be preoccupied with the baby for awhile. plus, dadi teaches primary at the same time that i teach so it would have been hard to teach with a little newborn crying or wanting to be breastfed. anyways, that's the news. hopefully i can have a little time off before i'm given my next calling. whatever the next one is, i'm sure i will like it though i know it's going to be hard to top being in young womens.