Update

Well, he is doing good. just super tired today and sore. his hands are swollen and so is his back. the bruise on his back is getting darker and bigger and i can see some other bruises appearing as well. he is tired because he had a bad night in the hospital last night. he had a crazy roommate that was up and yelling/cussing all night. he didn't get much sleep because of it. so he's been sleeping on and off all day. plus, he is on vicodin and so that is making him drowsy as well. just as long as he's comfortable. that's all i care about. i do go and wake him up every so often. i think he is okay from the concussion. the doctor didn't tell me to wake him up, i just feel better when i do. i feel bad because he needs his rest, but i want to make sure he's okay, so i wake him up anyways. he's probably getting annoyed with me. i put some medicine on his scrapes this evening. he got sick to his stomach earlier and threw up. i felt bad because his ribs are already hurting so much and to throw up when your ribs hurt is just awful. i think the vicodin is causing him to have an upset stomach. anyways, we may go tomorrow to look at the bike. it just depends on how he feels. i am going to take pictures of the bike and his leather jacket and his helmet and post in on here so you all can see the damage. his helmet cracked so he really hit his head good. poor guy. i have been kind of an emotional crazy girl today. i go from feeling so thankful and happy that he is okay to feeling sad and scared and just shaking. then I'm exhausted and crying. it's crazy. i just keep seeing him fly off the bike in front of me and it just freaks me out even though he is home and safe. i just can't stop thinking about it and when i think of the "what if's" i get super emotional and cry. it's been a rough couple of days. i think I'm going to have a hard time with this for awhile. it's one thing to know your husband was in an accident and it's another to see it happen and think you're going to run him over. i just kept thinking "I'm going to hit him, I'm going to hit him" i feel so bad for my BFF Vanessa, i had her on speaker phone when it happened and i completely freaked her out. i was just screaming. i can't even remember all that i said, but i know that i was saying "no no no!" and i said a few bad words. i think i was entitled to them though. he got upset with me later and said "moma was in the car" but i was like "ummm, sorry... i thought my husband was dead and it kind of slipped out!" i did tell the bishop though when he came to the hospital and he just laughed at me. i don't want to go to sleep tonight because last night i kept seeing the accident over and over again when i would close my eyes. i am so much more emotional today i think it's going to be a rough night. sorry to sound so dramatic, but he is my baby. i just want to hold him all day long and rub his back and make him feel better. at the same time, I'm afraid to touch him because i don't want to hurt him. i am probably smothering him to death with all the attention i am giving him. fluffing his pillows and rubbing his back, asking if he needs anything. I'm totally annoying but i just want to be sure he is comfortable. i don't want him to have to do anything that would make him hurt. he hurts enough just laying there. i am totally going to baby him for the next 6 months. he's going to get mad at me, but i don't care. now i have three babies! the house is a total disaster. it seriously looks like a tornado hit. i am going to try and pick up a little bit before i go to bed. i just don't really care about it too much right now. i have more important things to take care of. it can wait. thanks to all those who emailed and called to check on him today. it's so nice to know we have such good friends and family. he is resting so i have been fielding all the calls. once he gets to feeling better in a few days, he will be able to return calls.