Reflection, Doctors Appointment & TMI

So i wanted to post a couple of pictures of moma from when she was first born so my readers could get an idea of why I'm slightly paranoid about giving birth to this baby. it's hard to tell exactly how big she was from the photos because you don't see her next to a "normal" sized baby. but basically it was like she was the size of a three month old at birth. I was looking at pictures last night from my labor and everything and i mentioned to dadi how i was so happy that she didn't have any of that weird white cheesy stuff on her. she came out pretty clean compared to most babies. He said it was because "she ATE all the cheese". i was cracking up. sometimes my husband can make me laugh so much. last night was one of those nights and it made me remember why i love him so much and how attracted i am to his sense of humor.
Here's another shot. look at that hunk of meat above her nose. i am so glad that thing went away. she still has traces of it when she frowns, but it's nothing like it was when she was first born. Also, she wasn't very rolley-polley she was just solid as a rock. just look at the size of her chest! Crazy!!
Here's a picture of me right after giving birth. My mother in law gave me some good advice and i highly recommend it to any one that is having a baby. When you go into labor, take a shower and get all cleaned up. do your hair and your make up before heading off to the hospital. I did this and even though i look a little worn out, it's not nearly as bad as it could have been had i not showered or applied that make up. also, it's easy to keep your lipstick on when you're in labor because you can't eat or drink anything that would remove it. that's why my lipstick still looks pretty good. I also wore waterproof mascara. I am going to do the same thing with this kid so that my right-after-delivery-pictures look good again. the only thing that was messy was my hair. it got a huge knot in the back from rubbing on the pillow but i had long hair then. i am going to cut my hair once more right before the baby is born (unless he comes sooner) and that should help with the knotting. it's so short now that it doesn't really get tangled.
This last picture is of the first time i got to touch moma. they had to move her straight into a warmer and monitor her breathing since she had pooped in the fluid. i didn't get to hold her right when she came out. not even for a second. they had to make sure she was okay and i was fine with that. i could barely reach her little arm, but i love this picture because she is looking at me and i am looking at her. it was the only moment where i teared up a bit. i was in too much shock at how big she was to get emotional. i just kept thinking "NO WAY!! NO WAY!!"

Okay so today i had my 36 week doctors appointment. i was right, i went over my 30 pound limit by three pounds. bummer. it could have been worse though and the doctor said that i have done really well on my weight gain so that made me feel good. i was sort of expecting a lecture so when she said "your weight gain has been good" i got kind of happy. so she made the appointment with the hospital today and i am officially scheduled to be induced on the 18th! WOOO HOOO!!! can't wait. i am one centimeter dilated and she said that she could have helped me along to a two, but didn't want to since i was only 36 weeks. she wanted to wait until his lungs were fully formed in another week. okay... now's the TOO MUCH INFORMATION part of this blog post but i want to post about it since some of my readers have been well aware of my struggles over the past couple of years. So obviously when i had moma, i was damaged pretty badly (down there). the doctors were pretty concerned with it and while i was in the hospital, i actually had other doctors and nurses coming in to "inspect" the damage. i guess they all wanted to get together and talk about my privates during their coffee breaks or something. So i was told that any complications i had would be completely healed in about 6 months. well, two years later, i am still not completely recovered. So the doctors are going to preform what they call a "mini plastic surgery" to repair me and cut away the excess scar tissue that is causing me pain and discomfort. Most women complain that they are... (how do i say this nicely...) loosey goosey down there after child birth but my problem is the opposite and it's not fun. it's pretty scary to think about them repairing that area. it took me so long to heal after moma was born and I'm scared about what this little surgery will be like. I'm actually excited about it too because it should mean that i can be "normal" again like before. I'm just glad that they can do it at the same time as my delivery and that i don't have to go in for surgery at another time.
So that's it for today. sorry about the TMI, but i wanted to post about it because what I'm experiencing isn't the norm and if i can help some one else that has similar problems after giving birth then it's a good thing. it was something that i thought i was just going to have to deal with and I'm glad that i did the research that i did and got the courage up to talk to the doctor about it.
okay, so that's it. have a good day!